The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 356-360

356: Nerves are kicking in
Beau

My baby is adorable when he shifts to perfect mode. I know he wants this dinner to be perfect. He is expecting too much from his father. The man just accepted him and our relationship. He is not just going to come around that easily. He has his views and it will be difficult to just get him to accept ours just like that. I have to give it to him though, he is trying for his son. That is all that matters and that has brought him to my good books.

I know that he will say or do something that might end up making Lanis sad but I will be there tonight at all times and I will make sure that it doesn’t get to him. maybe I am panicking as much as Lanis is because I have been in a grouchy mood to everyone in the pack. as the leader of the pack, I haven’t done my Alpha ceremony and it is something that Alby has been pushing me to do. I am not scared—okay, maybe I am a little scared. I still have insecurities that I keep to myself. There are times when I think I am not good enough even though everyone else seems to believe in me.

Alby is so sure that I can handle everything and I want to believe him. hell, the only person that makes me believe that I can take up anything is Lanis. He is the comfort to all the clouded thoughts in my head.

Even though I haven’t done the ceremony. I have made some changes in the community. Not everyone is okay with the changes I have made but the majority of the people seem to be. For one, all omegas are allowed to go hunting. There is no differentiating again because it never really made sense to me. the rules of the community have always been that way. I plan to change every single rule. The traditions that we have held unto. I don’t believe in the majority of them.

We have a training every other day. Everyone is made to attend. We reached a stage where we relied on only the ones that were deemed strong. Most of the people in the pack were not strong enough to fight. We had become weak and now I want everyone to be able to defend themselves. I don’t want another Cassius situation—not like I am asking for an attack but just in case. I need everyone to be able to protect themselves.

“What crawled up your ass,’’ Bells walks up to me after the training ends and people are leaving the field. I release a sigh because I have been on my best behavior around Lanis. I know it is not healthy but I don’t want to upset him during this pregnancy. No matter what happens, I let him have the last say in the conversation and I guess at the end of it all, I need to take out the pent-up frustrations on someone else.