Chapter 431-440

Chapter 431
Zev trembled, looking for the courage. Would she look at him differently if she knew? He’d avoided even asking himself that. Didn’t want to doubt her. But now… she already suspected. He needed to be honest with her.

Sasha looked up at him, took both his hands, squeezing them. “Zev, what is it? What haven’t you told me?”

His heart hammered in his chest. “I, uh, haven’t told you about the training they gave me,” he muttered. “About the operational stuff. The reason I didn’t have to stay at the compound. The stuff Nick trained me to do.”

Sasha waited, watching him.

Zev swallowed hard. “The thing you need to know, Sash, is that I still believed them for a long time. I kind of had to. Even when doubts crossed my mind, to believe those doubts meant accepting that I’d been wrong. Like, really wrong. I had to admit to myself that I was a fool. And… it took me a long time to do that. Then, even when I did, it took some time to get out from under them.”

Sasha stepped closer, still holding his hands. “I love you, Zev. Just tell me. Get it out. It’s eating you up—and I… I don’t want to see you that way again. You can’t heal if you don’t bring it out into the light.

Zev sighed heavily. He looked down at the ground, his shoulders rolling forward. He suddenly felt fifteen again, and ashamed. Sasha continued to murmur her encouragement, with words and in his head. He was worrying her. But she needed to understand what they were dealing with, he realized.